Nothing really.
I need to be calling the local county services and make an appointment for an evaluation. I don't have insurance and this seems to be the best way to go.
So why haven't I? Anxiety basically. I'm not scared, but I am scared. You know how anxiety will do you.
I want help, I've decided to get the help, and I even have someone who will take me to an appointment. I will do it, I know I can. But this is just anxiety and what it will do to you. It keeps you from doing the things you want to do, and you know you should do. It's not simple procrastination or laziness. I want more than anything to get over this.
This is when you know you need to get help.
I will call. I will call.
Maybe tomorrow... sigh.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
About Me
Hi.
My name is Dave. I decided that I wanted to blog about my struggle with anxiety. I hope that maybe by sharing I can help someone by my experience or that by sharing I might help myself.
I am almost 45 years old and have had anxiety, at least chronically, for about 15 years. By chronically I mean that it has been a large enough issue to significantly affect my life. I believe that I have been anxiety friendly most of my life, and finally just succumbed.
I have dealt with my issues by myself, and with the understanding of a few family members, my entire life. I do consider myself highly functioning... meaning I at least sustain life, but doing so is not easy, not fun, and not fulfilling. That has led me to this point, I have decided and committed to seeking and getting professional assitance.
Finally, a life not full, a depression a little too deep, and knowing I am responsible for the creation and results of my life, I have decided that no matter what happens or where I end up, I'm tired of being here....
I have never blogged.
I hope to learn as I go. I hope that there is constructive advice both given and received. I hope to get organized, write as well as I can, maybe even get better along the way, and keep it interesting and even humorous. And honestly, if I can get a little "Google" money for my efforts, that'd be nice too! Let's face it... I don't work regularly, I don't have insurance, and I need help. I'll settle for the therapeutic side of opening myself to everyone, or maybe no one, and if I can get a few quarters thrown in my cup then I will be very grateful.
If you come to participate, or just to follow along, or just watch a noob with an impossible dream crash and burn, Welcome.
My name is Dave. I decided that I wanted to blog about my struggle with anxiety. I hope that maybe by sharing I can help someone by my experience or that by sharing I might help myself.
I am almost 45 years old and have had anxiety, at least chronically, for about 15 years. By chronically I mean that it has been a large enough issue to significantly affect my life. I believe that I have been anxiety friendly most of my life, and finally just succumbed.
I have dealt with my issues by myself, and with the understanding of a few family members, my entire life. I do consider myself highly functioning... meaning I at least sustain life, but doing so is not easy, not fun, and not fulfilling. That has led me to this point, I have decided and committed to seeking and getting professional assitance.
Finally, a life not full, a depression a little too deep, and knowing I am responsible for the creation and results of my life, I have decided that no matter what happens or where I end up, I'm tired of being here....
I have never blogged.
I hope to learn as I go. I hope that there is constructive advice both given and received. I hope to get organized, write as well as I can, maybe even get better along the way, and keep it interesting and even humorous. And honestly, if I can get a little "Google" money for my efforts, that'd be nice too! Let's face it... I don't work regularly, I don't have insurance, and I need help. I'll settle for the therapeutic side of opening myself to everyone, or maybe no one, and if I can get a few quarters thrown in my cup then I will be very grateful.
If you come to participate, or just to follow along, or just watch a noob with an impossible dream crash and burn, Welcome.
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